You Look Good in a Tidal Wave

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MANTRA TO OVERCOME DEPRESSION

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Vitamin D. Sunlight. Go
outside. Get a good night

of sleep. Not too good.

Not shades drawn forever
good. Not like you used to.

Open the windows.

Buy more houseplants.
Breathe. Meditate. (One day,

you will no longer be

afraid of being alone
with your thoughts.)

Exercise. Actually exercise

instead of just googling it.
Eat well. Cook for yourself.

Organize your closet, the

garage. Drink plenty of water
and repeat after me:

I am not a problem

to be solved. Repeat after me:
I am worthy I am worthy I am

neither the mistake nor

the punishment. Forget to take
vitamins. Let the houseplant die.

Eat spoonfuls of peanut butter.

Shave your head. Forget
this poem. It doesn’t matter–

there is no wrong way

to remember the grace of your
own body; no choice

that can unmake itself.

There is only now, here,
look: you are already

forgiven.

- Sierra DeMulder

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Sometimes it takes time to know what you know.

Jessica Fechtor, STIR (via susannathinks)

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Song of Avignon dir. Jonas Mekas (1998)

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You never knew the last time you were seeing someone. You didn’t know when the last argument happened, or the last time you had sex, or the last time you looked into their eyes and thanked God they were in your life.
After they were gone?
That was all you thought about.
Day and night.

J.R. Ward, Lover Mine (via susannathinks)

Source: wordsnquotes

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Heavy. Mary Oliver.

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That time
I thought I could not
go any closer to grief
without dying

I went closer,
and I did not die.
Surely God
had his hand in this,

as well as friends.
Still, I was bent,
and my laughter,
as the poet said,

was nowhere to be found.
Then said my friend Daniel,
(brave even among lions),
“It’s not the weight you carry

but how you carry it -
books, bricks, grief -
it’s all in the way
you embrace it, balance it, carry it

when you cannot, and would not,
put it down.”
So I went practicing.
Have you noticed?

Have you heard
the laughter
that comes, now and again,
out of my startled mouth?

How I linger
to admire, admire, admire
the things of this world
that are kind, and maybe

also troubled -
roses in the wind,
the sea geese on the steep waves,
a love
to which there is no reply?

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Communicate. Even when it’s uncomfortable or uneasy. One of the best ways to heal, is simply getting everything out.

(via piiss)

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Don’t believe the voices in your head. They come from the people you’re learning to forget.

E. B. Matthews
(via wordsnquotes)

Source: wordsnquotes.com

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Reminders:

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Don’t let anyone treat you badly because you’re scared of losing them.
Someone who comes in and out of your life isn’t worth the stress.
You are not a reflection of those who could not love you properly.
You are a priority, not an option.

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Everything in your past already happened and there is nothing really you can do about it. Unburden yourself from the obligation to constantly fight against unchangeable bygone situations. This is not lazy — it’s just the only thing you can actually do. Strive to do better in the future, and not in some grandiose, compulsive way. Just try to make the small, good choice every time you are presented with a new choice to make.

Everything Is Fine (via optais-amme)